In the Grip of Contempt
Coping with inner conflicts and soaring body counts of near total collapse in Gaza
There is an old parable about a Cherokee elder who was teaching his grandchild about life. You might have heard it. The grandfather said,
“A fight is going on inside you. It is a terrible fight between two wolves. One wolf represents fear, anger, envy, greed, arrogance, and ego. The other stands for joy, peace, love, hope, kindness, generosity, and faith. The same fight going on inside you is inside every other person too.” The child thought about it for a minute, then asked, “Which wolf will win?” The old man replied, “The one you feed.”
One would think joy and peace would win out this Yuletide, but with the world poised at the nexus of catastrophe and coexistence, my own enraged, fearful wolf rarely goes hungry nowadays.
And can you sense pervasive angst? As endemic as Covid, it is throbbing with each new predictable fissure in Biden’s “rules-based” world order. A malaise of fear and contempt is keeping many of us up nights, ever since the invasion of Ukraine kicked off in the middle of a global pandemic, as if choking in an overwhelmed ER or vaporizing in a thermonuclear Armageddon were not enough.
To make matters worse, have you noticed a sense of greater or lesser uncertainty or worse, an urge to measure each word before weighing in on a controversy? The fear of losing another “friend” or colleague in a cancel culture of toxic bipartisanship drives or stifles most discourse. Those who have chosen dissent, or even regularly sound off against our exponential spiral, are tagged as radical or conspiratorial for coloring outside the lines of the approved pro-war narrative. Sunk cost dissenter epithets include apologist (Saddam, Asad et al), Kremlin agent (for my Jill Stein votes), Putin puppet (a favorite catch-all), and incredibly or not, a white supremacist (you read correctly) for speaking and writing, with a heightened sense of urgency regarding US/Russia nuclear threats, all of them de facto deflections from much-needed dialogue.
And now, we’re antisemitic, for unequivocally supporting an end to Palestinian oppression and the ongoing carnage in Gaza, in spite of Jerusalem Declaration support for “the Palestinian demand for justice and the full grant of their political, national, civil and human rights, as encapsulated in international law.”
On Friday, the U.S. vetoed a U.N. Security Council resolution calling for an immediate humanitarian ceasefire in the Israel-Hamas war, but antiwar “radicals” like me are slammed publicly in the commons or surreptitiously from the safety of social media mobs.
More red meat for my inner Canis lupus.
The U.S. Deputy Ambassador to the United Nations Robert A. Wood told the council his singular raised hand represented opposition to “an imbalanced resolution that was divorced from reality that would not move the needle forward on the ground in any concrete way.” After more than 42 Security Council vetoes in support of unchecked Israeli occupation and oppression, I would guess the U.S. gave up on a reality-based assessment of Palestinian oppression many pogroms ago.
Wood might also be right about not moving the needle on the ground, in any direction, but what right do peace “radicals” have to back off now? The long-term consequences would be apocryphal, but no less devastating than one. more. dead. child.
Last week CUNY professor Diana B. Greenwald posted:
Perhaps I am naïve, but I am just starting to grasp that for some of Israel’s supporters, including many Americans, many I have known in various capacities, even those I have called friends, there is simply no number of Palestinian deaths that will cause them to call for an end to this onslaught.
If the number wasn’t 5,000, if it wasn’t 10,000, if it isn’t 15,000, then there is no number.
Maybe I am wrong. Maybe when we get to 20,000, or 25,000, or 30,000, their attitudes will shift. But how can we be asked to “hope” for this?
How can we — no, how can the millions of homeless, dehydrated, hungry, wounded, ill, and traumatized in Gaza — be asked to abide this?
In spite alternative media graphic content warnings of ravaged neighborhoods, mass graves, child and toddler amputees, the number that resonates with me is the lonely number One - a single Gazan kid in his father's arms being rushed into the ruins of a bomb-shattered clinic in Gaza City. I see him most nights, a final wakeful intrusion. Wide-eyed, dead - the top of his skull missing but for a crown of shards - but no longer afraid. At first I'm overwhelmed, with an inner wolf alpha status sadly in question.
Monday, December 11, Bellingham, Washington City Council will introduce a resolution for public comment in support of an “Immediate and Indefinite Ceasefire in Israel and Occupied Palestine,” crafted by Whatcom (County) Families for Justice, Whatcom Peace & Justice Center, and Veterans for Peace Chapter 111. Interestingly, Bellingham’s latest resolution effort is a do-over from Operation Protective Edge in 2014, when a similar resolution, calling for an end to violence on both sides, failed for the lack of a second. Threats and intimidation won out.
“Mowing the grass” nine years ago saw more than 2,000 Palestinian deaths, including more than 500 children, and more than 10,000 people injured. Since October 7 at least 17,487 Palestinians have been killed so far with U.S. bombs - 70% of them women and children - and 46,000 injured, according to the latest Gaza Health Ministry numbers. U.N. monitors claim the ministry figures are an under-report, with thousands still buried under rubble.
And today, there is virtually no time left for a 2023 do-over. Only love, kindness, hope, and I would add peaceful protest, will sate our inner wolves.